Wow...so I have totally sucked at this blogging thing for the past 3 months. Wow. That's pretty bad. Honestly, it's worse than I thought it was. I don't know why, but I kept thinking "it's only been like 3 weeks since I've blogged." Kind of the way I think about the ages of my siblings- "Morganne? Oh, she's 9...*does math in head*...oh, no wait. She's 13." Anyway. I've been saying/thinking for a while now that I wanted my blogs to be a lot more personal, but I don't think I've truly let them be that way. It's kind of a hard transition because this is my "business" blog. I should be professional. I have to be professional. Don't I? Wait. Nope. I mean...yes and no. Yes, I am a professional-as in I show up on time, email my brides and clients back expediently, shoot every shoot with everything I've got and give my clients the best pictures I am physically able to give them, etc. But I don't want to be "professional" in the sense of beginning my emails to clients with "To whom it may concern". Or wearing suits to client meetings. Ultimately, I don't want to obliterate the relationship aspect of what I do just to keep up some ridiculous appearance of being "professional". The relationship aspect is the whole reason I do what I do. Yes, I love taking pictures and I think I have a talent for it. But mostly, I love people. I love hearing their stories and building a friendship. In fact, by the time I shoot your wedding day, it shouldn't be weird for me to walk into your wedding without my camera and just give you a hug and tell you how gorgeous you look! If that's weird, I totally understand, but you probably don't want me to shoot your wedding. Which is TOTALLY cool!! There are a lot of freaking amazing photographers out there, who will fit your needs much better. I'm just a completely silly, geeky girl who loves relating to people so much that no matter how much I try, I really can't hide it. My apologies for people who feel uncomfortable with this.
So. Onto the personal stuff.
The past three months have been amazing and hard. Exciting and depressing. Full of learning and realizing how much I have to learn. Within the same six weeks, I had three weeks of the least amount of activity of my photography career, followed by three weeks of booking more than I ever have. Praise the Lord! I realize that's the nature of being a photographer. Well, the nature of owning your own business really. But that doesn't make those "dead" periods feel any less scary and never-ending. ( I know, I know-it was only three weeks. But turns out, I'm a bit of a control freak. Who knew?!)
Not only that, but my absolute best friend in the entire world went to become a missionary in Podgorica, Montenegro with her husband and two sweet, sweet children. (All of the pictures I took are of her beautiful family just a week before they left.) She left three weeks ago, so I spent the months before giving her every ounce of my spare time. I knew it would be hard, and that I would miss her like crazy, but I didn't realize it would be this hard. Through her absence God revealed to me how much I haven't built any kind of consistent community in Atlanta. I have some great relationships in Stockbridge (20 minutes south of the city), but no real fellowship in the city. I also realized how horrible that is for my spirit. It causes me to put way too much pressure on my poor husband (who has been incredibly patient and loving throughout this entire transition) and ultimately leaves me feeling incredibly isolated and hopeless. Please understand, I am not saying that God can't meet all my needs, but I wholeheartedly believe that He blesses believers with fellowship as an additional means of communicating His love to His church. It is so true what the Bible says. "We are a body..." (1 Corinthians 12:1-26).
Ultimately, the past three months have been about growth. Growth in my business. Growth in my relationships. Growth in my spiritual walk. But there are parts of growth that are hard. No, let's be honest, parts of growth just flat out suck. No two ways about it. But once the growing pains subside, it really is amazing to recognize the beauty of the pain and the joy in the revelation of a better version of you. So for all of you doing some serious growing right now, get excited! You're just around the corner from being even more awesome.